Breaking Out in Two
Dont you feel like trying something new
Dont you feel like breaking out
Or breaking us in two
You dont do the things that I do
You want to do things I cant do
Always something breaking us in two
You and I could never live alone
But dont you feel like breaking out
Just one day on your own
Why does what Im saying hurt you
I didnt say that we were through
Always something breaking us in two
They say two hearts should beat as one for us
Well fight it out to see it through
I say that wont be too much fun for us
Though its oh so nice to get advice
Its oh so hard to do
Could we be much closer if we tried
We could stay at home and stare
Into each others eyes
Maybe we could last an hour
Maybe then wed see right through
Always something breaking us in two
Steppin' Out
Now -
The mist across the window hides the lines
But nothing hides the colour of the lights that shine
Electricity so fine
Look and dry your eyes
We -
So tired of all the darkness in our lives
With no more angry words to say
Can come alive
Get into a car and drive
To the other side
Me babe - steppin out
Into the night
Into the light
You babe - steppin out
Into the night
Into the light
We -
Are young but getting old before our time
Well leave the t.v. and the radio behind
Dont you wonder what well find
Steppin out tonight
You -
Can dress in pink and blue just like a child
And in a yellow taxi turn to me and smile
Well be there in just a while
If you follow me
Me babe - steppin out
Into the night
Into the light
You babe - steppin out
Into the night
Into the light
m. okay.. another sterotype entry gonna start..
Over my 20++ yrs of living.. i realise something.. (sterotype) about people using big umberall... this happens when i saw my collegue came to work during a rainy day using a super extra XL big umberalla one day.. we asked him "wah, your umberall very big." then the guy replied saying "oh.. then can shelter me, my wife and 1 child mah, lol" Something struck me here.. which is..
usually people who reply this sentence are 9/10 faithful....
okay, i try to recall over the years what had people say about using big umberalls, and i come to a conclusion that...
faithful people reply:"oh.. then can shelter me, my wife and 1 child mah, lol"
playboy/yet to settle down:"can shelter me, my wife and mistress mah"
people who are crazy about greenhouse effect, animals, spca:" it should be able to shelter me and my pets, i can fall sick but my dog/cat/etc cant."
a bit of self-central people/cover own backside more than care about other, people: "so that i would kana as less rain as possible no matter how big the rain is."
helpful/naive/most of the time kana cheated, people:"so can shelter more people mah, (note the people is anybody, regardless of anybody)
relastic/logical/smart people: "so i can use to shelter my loves ones/friends. (note that this person forget about everyone else)
rational/emotional people: "i feel secure using big umberalls, big good mah, in case can also share with people who needs umberalls but dun have. small umberalls like wind blow will be spolit"
and the list go on and one.....
well.. this is just sterotype.. haha. dont take it as comparing list!.
Anyway, recently i have contracted this illness, Hyperthyriod. Its not contagious nor deadly.. Google is your best friend for more info.. Anyway.. cos of this, i have really stop playing wow and other online game. okay, i still log in to wow sometimes cos my subcription havent end yet.. But i stopped raiding! Something which i really missed doing.. hai... but cannot la.. every time i will feel dizzy due to kan chiong and out of breath.... and lots of other other small small issues cos of this illness,... like less tolerent to heat and hot temper, shaking hands, etc etc.. cos this illness will make my heart beats faster, like 120-150 when normal human is 90+. Cos this heartbeat faster, all the above comes about..
I realise either my parents are changing or actually they really care about me...
Cos of this illness, i have to take lots medicine.. some of them caused me itchy rashes, i not sure wither its allegic or cos of this illness. Cos now i become more sensitive to enviroment. Like a little dusts, sweat, or in mrt too many people, etc will make me itch, then i will start scratching like monkey..
At the beginning the itch wasnt so bad.. but recently its so bad until i really feel like committing sucide cos its reawlly really more tichy then chicken pox, even when i take the anti-itch pills, it helps a little bit only....
After praying sincerly, now the itch has lessen a little bit, back to the starting point when i contracted this illness..
my parents really changed a lot.. my mother suddenly care a lot about me, like care for my itch, she make sure my room or where i go is free of dusts, etc etc.. she even gave me the permission to use powerful fan to blow directly at me 24/h at home.
and most suprising is my father.. sometimes i cant wake up on sunday morning, he will say u rest at home lor. he wouldnt force me to go like last time. Last time, he has this mentaly of u die die also must go every sunday, even if i go there and fall asleep, also must go, i must just go there and show my face, regardless of whether my heart is there or not... Now its like if i am tired, he say nvm, rest at home..
and also others things which is too long to type here..
hehe, my new workplace is quite okay.. so nothing much to say..
so.. thats all for today.. bye and have a good weekend.. ;D
Have anyone of u reading this post, thought of becoming immortal?.
Recently i watched Mermaid's Forest anime online, on this free anime website that i use often to watch anime online...
it was first done as a manga by Rumiko Takahashi who is a hot manga drawer during the late 80s and early 90s. i read this manga when it first came out during the early 90s which i was in sec school.
watching this anime really brought back a lot of my seconday days memories.. the manga wasnt mine anyway, it was lend by my bested friend during that time... i didnt have money to buy it.
anyway, Mermaid's Forest's main chars are the mermaids and 2 immortals namely Ruka and Mana. if u really know more, pls google for their wiki website.
There's a legend in Mermaid's Forest that you'll become immortal if u consume the mermaid's flesh,blood or etc. But.. eating the mermaid flesh is a gamble, for you may either really become an immortal or... become a lost soul or just die from the poision in the mermaid flesh.
Mermaid flesh is poision so everyone body react differently to it. out of like 1000++ people, only 1 body will be immune to the poision and become an immortal. But well, various people in this story use the flesh for different purpose all leading to 1 aim, is to be an immortal.
Seriously, what is so good to be an immortal?.. Even out of this story, i am sure you have heard of in China olden days, the kings has always been finding ways and means to be immortal.
Beside humans want to hunt mermaids, mermaids are also hunting for pretty immortal human girls. For if they eat the flesh, the mermaids will take on the pretty face and image. So this goes on, until the effect wears out... and they go on seaching again...
Its a world eat world.... everyone want to be immortal at the best prime of their life.
If its so easily attainable, it wouldnt be called the best prime time of their life
its true that now i really missed the prime time of my life.. the carefree teenages days.. the best or the worst days of my life depending on which angle i look from.. but .... being 18-20 forever is so nice right? BUT... this is going against the nature.. and if i am the only immortal while all my friends and love ones aged and die, its really useless being immortal.
This is one of the few mangas stories that its imprinted in my mind, even when i wither and old.. i will still remember the story......
Anyway watching this anime really bring back a lot of my sec school days memories.. some of them i cant say here... but there's something that has been on my heart and mind for a very long long time......
i have this best friend in sec school. we are really the best of the bested friends... we have the same interests and pratically also our name rthymns. We have almost similar charateristic and habbits. She's the one who lend me the Mermaid's Forest manga. Thats y it reminds me of her when i watching this anime..
But.... a lot of things happen between us and we driffted apart after going to different polytechnic.
one day we met up for dinner,.. we are trying to fill up the gap between us so we meet now and then, my ex-bf called up ask to meet for dinner as a friend, i thought that since we are already in town, i dun mind having dinner with 3 of us.
this is something which i have regretted till now.. i intro both of them and both of them became an item together.. i am not jealous or anything cos we cant really get along. BUT..... i should have stopped them being together.. but... i am stucked. cos she really really fall in deep love with him.. When she asked me how i think of him.. i stayed netrual instead of being negative about him when i already had known he wasnt a very good bf to begin with.... i only said a few sentences to her regarding him.
"he's an overall nice friend and bf if he really loves u"
"he's wasnt meeting my expectations of a good bf that y we broke up. But if you really love him so much and he also, i wont stop u nor encourage you. Cos this is your life and i cant decide for you..."
and.. in the end they end up together... and turns out that they broke up due to him dump her for another girl (i think).... and also a lot of hurtful things he has done to her...
she was really very sad and become a lesbian after this incident.. And i really feel very gulity and i guess she is angry with me?
so we driffted apart and i havent really contacted her since then.. which is many many years ago... i saw her a few times in town, we just say hi and bye..
A lot of things i regretted doing during my teenage life, like not treasuring my life and always clubbing and mixing with bad people, etc etc..
sometimes i wonder is it cos i took my life for granted and not treasuring myself that y i have so many regrets now.
But above all these regrets, the thing i really regret the most is what i did to my friend.
If i really have a chance to go back to my teenage life, i would really stop her from being with him, and change the way the sentences i had said. i really should have say "he's a bastard!! dont fucking believe in him, unless he's really in love with him which i doubt so.. his mentally is fucking inmature for his age! he cant fucking give u what u want. That y i fucking left him mah!" Argh, y the fuck did i stay netural!! this is really fucking stupid of me..... i am really so stupid and navie i though she and him really fall in love and i should not stop a fruitful r/s from blooming. this is really fucking stupid of me!
and amending this, i would also change the way of my life which just consist of clubbing, drinking, etc etc......
hai....... sad to say i am really very navie and stupid also during my teenage days.. :`(...
i should have just be a good girl in church and find a good christian bf to marry.....
hai... same as the 2 immortals.. regretted that they took the mermaid flesh without knowledge.. doomed to live in loneliness without friends, parents... apart from 1 lover...
